We are midway through the winter months. The winter has been such a strange weather phenomenon! Talk about hibernating. I have been hunkered down like a big old bear! Really nurturing my water element. Which is the element for winter.
I am Fire. I have a TON of fire. My main element is fire energy, my birth sign is fire(Aries), I have 6 planets in fire signs. So water is an element I struggle with. It can really overwhelm my fire. I was determined to not let the water put out my fire this winter.
And damn if i am doused! I am so out of balance. I have no energy. I have gained weight, I finally made it to yoga class only to realize, Girl, you are out of balance! I couldn’t hold any poses on my right side. Which is my strong side. So right away my body has told me what is going on internally and mentally.
So I dug in and did some research. Colds movements are slow, it freezes things. Have you seen the pictures of Lake Michigan? I am moving so slowly it feels like I am trudging through quicksand.
Water, winter, kidneys, fear, annoyance. Lately things don’t scare me. Not after what I have seen and experienced. So another clue I am out of balance is I am waking up in the middle of the night. So the bags under the eyes? Yep, you guessed it. Water, kidneys, Fears.
My under eye area is puffy. This tells me I have some feelings that are stagnant. Now I know what those feelings are and I am reading an INCREDIBLE book to help me relearn now I respond to these feelings. The Power of your Subconscious Mind by Dr. Joseph Murphy.
If I had dark circles or sunken in under the eye physically you have temporarily been rundown! You need to recharge! It could also mean you are dehydrated or have allergies. Emotionally, this could be unshed tears. Suppressed hurts or feelings that have not been released. If this area is VERY dark there, the surpressed feelings are very old. This hurt has been blocking you system for a very long time.
Listen up America, STOP IT! We need to stop telling our children, don’t cry. Let them fucking cry until their hurt goes away. We have to stop telling boys to man up. Our bodies were made perfectly. If our instinct is to cry, scream, spit, drool! I have done that for the last 3 years! Hold nothing back! Why?
To me there is nothing sexier than a man that can cry and be vulnerable with me. There is nothing sweeter than kissing Maddy’s tears while I hold her. Wiping away Kayla’s tears as she tells me her fears. I am working on Payton and helping him see it is ok for a 20 year old boy.
You have a part to play in the face you present to the world. In fact you have the biggest role! Your face is your story. So now you know what those bags under your eyes means and how to help with them! Now I still use my Osmosis Refresh eye cream in the morning and my Refresh PM every night because as my 49th birthday approaches I still want to be mistaken for 39!
And yes I still have fears. Now when they come up I sit with that fear. Where did this fear come from? Why is it valid? How is it unreasonable? What childhood belief did this come from? And how can I retrain my thoughts as an adult to recognize this fear should not rule my life OR cause these ugly bags under my eyes. Can I let it go?
March 21st people! Spring is coming. Cultivate your ground so the seeds can be planted in fertile ground.